I had a very strange and familiar thing happen to me today at work. I was in my office discussing work stuff with a co-worker/friend when I mentioned that I was going to be working from home in the afternoon because my dog Buddy wasn’t doing so well. He had hurt his back about a month ago and had gradually gotten better and had become playful again. Unfortunately, he had reinjured it again yesterday and was unable to move very well. I continued on talking about how hard it is to see him like this and how I was concerned about him. I then said “I have already had to say good-bye to two children; I don’t want have to say goodbye to my friend Buddy as well.” As soon as those words left my mouth, I started to weep.
The words of “saying goodbye to two children” and the thought of saying goodbye to another family member I love hit me really hard. It was strange because I haven’t had emotions triggered like that for a while, familiar because there was a time just saying their name or thinking about them triggered this kind of response. Although healing has taken place over the years, it goes to show you are never 100% healed emotionally or physically after losing a child. The pain sits just below the surface just waiting to be triggered.
Have you had a similar situation?