Is it just me or is there anyone else out there that finds it difficult when another dad (or mother) talks about how they are expecting a beautiful healthy baby or when they parade the newborn baby around the office to introduce their new bundle of joy to the world or they talk about how they spent the weekend at the park with their child or how they just love coaching their child’s sports team? I could go on and on, but you get the point.
Today I was walking through the office and one of the guys in my office that I occasionally speak with says “Hey, have you heard the goods, my wife is 10 weeks pregnant”. Please do not get me wrong, I am happy for them (for the most part), but I do not want to hear about it. Most people in my office know what I went through with the loss of my two babies, but that doesn’t seem to stop them from sharing the “good news” with me. I try to chalk it up to ignorance on their part because they are naïve to how quickly things can change or the pain that others are experiencing after the death of a child.
Maybe they just think that since it’s been 6 years and 5 years since my children’s deaths, they think that I am “over it” and that their “good news” doesn’t bother me, but it does. It bothers me every time I see a dad holding his little girls hand or playing ball with his son in the park. No, it doesn’t send me into deep depression, but it gnaws at me.
Anyone else experience similar thoughts or feelings about this subject?