I received the following from a grieving dad that lost his 16 year old son to murder. He speaks with honesty:
I got the news that he was shot when I was at home. In traveling to my parents’ home, I got the next call that he had indeed lost his life. I stopped the car and I, my wife, my daughter and my mother-in-law just started crying. I got out of the car and started to openly sob on the street.
I definitely can’t forgive the person that did it, or anyone who was there at the time. I want them dead in the worst way. The person who killed my son got life with no chance of parole. This is not enough for me. I want him to suffer each day a little more than each previous day. He killed my son because he was talking about something that happened previously. To take a humans life is unforgivable.
I sometimes find it hard to forgive myself because I should have done more in his life to help change his life. My son started to get away from me. I knew this. But I never thought it would turn out like this. It’s heartbreaking.
I have become removed from everybody. I don’t call anybody, I don’t return calls, emails, text messages, etc. I don’t go to church. I don’t socialize at all. I just do things that bring me joy around the house and that’s pretty much it.
I am now an advocate for stricter gun laws. I also think that if a person takes another persons life needlessly, then capital punishment laws should be in place in all 50 states. Don’t waste time or taxpayers money. From sentencing to death chamber should be no longer than one year. I miss my son deeply and feel ashamed that he had to go through such a horrible thing, but it just angers me so that, as a society, we have allowed ourselves to become such pushovers to criminals to take away the things that we cherish the most. Tougher laws need to be in place to protect the innocent and not the other way around.