It’s been over 11 years since I’ve heard this song for the first time. It was about a year after losing my daughter Katie. It was also 8 months prior to losing my son Noah. I remember my wife and I sitting in the living room watching TV and this song came on in a video. The opening lyrics are:
“Sunny days seem to hurt the most. I wear my pain like a heavy coat.”
Although we didn’t know what the song was about, we both looked at each other with tears flowing down our cheeks. Although it had been a year since our loss, I was still trying to avoid the pain by not dealing with it. If you read my book Grieving Dads: To the Brink and Back, you’ll know what I’m talking about.
Music lyrics have a way of speaking to me in ways that often trigger emotions from happiness to sadness and everything in between. I often listen to music when I work at the office or just around the house. It’s not uncommon for my wife and I to turn on music at home and just enjoy a couple of cocktails while talking about life.
Today was one of those days were I was sitting at my desk and Spotify was playing random music and this song came on. I immediately stopped what I was doing and just listened. It took me back to the moment I first heard this song and the emotions it triggered.
The song is called “Who You’d Be Today” by Kenny Chesney. I often wonder who Katie and Noah would have been. What their personalities would have been like. The type of people they would have become. Questions that are to difficult to answer because its impossible to know. However, I believe they are kind loving souls that will live with me until I die. Providing me guidance and perspective.
If you do not know this song or are interested in hearing it, click here to watch a video.
Let me know your thoughts on the song and how music impacts you.